Just photos

Have been on much lately. Don't have much to share..do have some drama but I have a stinkin' headache that has made me change my mind about blogging tonight so I'll try to update over the weekend. Here's some pics of the girlies :)

Dinner at Cubbys BBQ

Sleeping at Cubbys BBQ

Karly dressed for St. Pats Day

Karly had too much fun on St. Pats Day :)

(yes I know there are a lot of no-nos in her crib but she loves them)

Katie wanting nothing to do with the camera

This is what one of her tantrums looks like..you can imagine the noise..

This is what happens a few minutes later..

Take care :)

Video..

It's army crawling but she's working on it. Katie started tonight but when you look at her she cries for you to pick her up. I have to learn to look out of the corner of my eye lol.

Quick update..

Start: 43 lb goal...

3/14/09: 38 to go.

Not much, but it's something. I need need need to add more physical activity but I never seem to have enough time and when I do, I'm tired.

Girls are 8 months old today. Katie is on antibiotics for a double ear infection, pink eye in both eyes and a yucky cold that we've started using the nebulizer for. I didn't even know she was sick. I brought her in for the obvious pink eye and that was the dx.

Karly is doing great. Crawling around everywhere. Getting into everything. She's so cute :).

I haven't gotten to anyones blog in a week or two so I hope all is well in blog land. I'm hoping to catch up tomorrow :)

Okay...

I haven't blogged in a week but it seems longer.

1. My computer had to be erased..along with all my photos. :( I'm heartbroken because I had uploaded to the computer and deleted my camera card. All gone :(

2. My diet is still there but it's not going anywhere. I'm still where I was. How is that possible?

3. For my job, I need continuing education credits. This takes place on Saturdays. I'm finished, right after I read this book and take a test.

4. My girls are getting oh so big. Their well visit is next wednesday. I can't wait to see how big they are getting.

5. Karly is crawling! Katie was trying but has stopped. I had to move Karlys mattress down because she pulls herself up now.

6. There is someone in my life that is treating me like I'm a moron and this person has been in my life forever so I'm not sure how to address it. It's really pissing me off and I'd like to put this person in her place but I'm not going to.

Ugh..

Today I tried so hard..I did :)

Breakfast: Raisin Bran/fat free milk
Lunch: WW multi grain with peanut butter
Dinner: salad, Salmon w/broccoli and some potatoes
but:
I had some cheesecake from the cheesecake factory. One of my kids gave me a GC 2 years ago and I never used it so we did tonight. It was yummy.

So I guess tomorrow is another day. We are staying home so I'm guessing there won't be any disruptions to my diet. I am making strawberry wheat pancakes in the morning. Probably something small for lunch and a nice dinner. j

Baby news:
Katie crawls...well army crawling but she's moving everywhere which means I have two mobile babies. How exciting!

Okay so it's been a few days..

Tracy...I want to read your blog :( I miss the wonder twins...

Dearest Katherine Emily,

You are such a beautiful child. You feel my heart with so much love. You are so quiet and peaceful. Daddy wants you to say "Dada" so bad. I've heard you say "Mama" once, but I'm okay with that. Today, you almost fell off the bed. You became mobile in a matter of moments :). Today I also learned that you don't like mommy leaving the room without and that I'm not allowed to blowdry my hair unless I'm holding you. You are so beautiful and I love you so much.

Dearest Karly Elizabeth,

You are one silly baby. You love to laugh, act goofy and wiggle everywhere. You say all kinds of stuff and you love to "sing". By sing, I mean scream at the top of your lungs and laugh. People think you are crying but we have to say "No, she's just singing". They actually have to look at you to make sure. You haven't been feeling yourself though. You are getting your second bottom tooth and it's making you very cranky. I love you though. You are the cutest thing ever.

Diet News:

Okay so exercising is not going well BUT I have been getting some walking in. I walked around walmart (fast, not slow) and I do some dancing with the kids in class and I went for a walk to the park today with the girls. I loved it. Weigh in is on tuesday so we'll see what happens..anyway here's what I had today

Breakfast: raisin bran, fat free milk

Snack: peanuts

Lunch: chinese food (ick...not good) pork friend rice

Snack: peanuts

Dinner: White Castle (double ick) but I only had 3 burgers and like 4 fries ;)

Snack: 1 powdered doughnut and milk (I know I know)

so I guess it's safe to say that I totally blew my diet today. If it makes you feel better, I feel kind of like throwing up. 2 weeks without crap can make a tummy sensitive to it :).

Night all :)

hi

Wonder Twins: Tracy...I can't read your blog! Invite please? Tinamarie623@msn.com.

Diet:
Breakfast: Farina (cream of wheat) Milk/toast
lunch: half a tuna sandwich/peanuts/diet dr pepper
dinner: Chicken soup, chicken breast, milk
snacks: peanuts, apple and lollipop :)
liquids: milk, water, half a diet dr pepper

Oops!

I totally forgot to post sunday and monday night :).

Diet news:

I weighed myself this morning to find out I am -2 pounds now. I was pretty happy with that. I don't get to excited until it's more than 5 pounds because it always goes up and down. I really really really want the weather to warm up a bit so I can go walking. I used to walk 2 miles everymorning and I miss that. They just built this really nice walking/running track down the hill from my house by the waterfront and I can't wait to go wear it out. I don't remember what I ate on sunday but here's what i had yesterday.

Breakfast: cheerios/banana (wow no eggs or oatmeal? lol)

Lunch: Smart ones Lasagna

Dinner: Egg noodles and meatloaf with red sauce

Snacks: Peanuts, peanuts and peanuts. Oh I also had a piece of v day choc and some fruit snacks :)

Liquids: Water, Milk

Girlie news:

Karly has her second tooth!! Katie isn't even teething :(. Her daddy didn't get teeth until he was 11 months old so I'm guessing she's going to be the same. Karly is becoming more mobile and is getting into everything! You really can't turn your back on her for a second.

A long but fun day :)

My dad started earlier than normal ;).

I got up at 6, got dressed and left the house. I skipped the shower. Didn't feel it necessary. Picked up my friend at 7, stopped for coffee and breakfast sandwiches and headed to the hotel. We arrived in West Orange at a great time, signed in and found our co-workers and got seats. From 8-12, we listened to two men talk about how to deal with children that like to get in trouble :). It was a seminar about Discipline. I have to complete 8 hours of seminars by April 30th. I did 4 today, 4 to go. I enjoy them. I love learning new techniques but I'm not a head teacher now, so I'll store the info, do what I can and go with it.

Once I dropped my friend off, I headed home where I got to see my girls for the first time today. Katie was getting her diaper changed and arched her back so she could look at me. I got the biggest smile. Daddy had put karly in her crib because she was inconsolable. I walked in and got the biggest smile before she started crying. I picked her up and hugged her and all the tears went away. Best. Feeling. Ever. She missed me. She knew I was gone and she missed me.

After my shower, we got ready and headed out for the day. We went to Sams Club to restock up on diapers and wipes and some other stuff we didn't need. After leaving Sams, we went to Target then to Jose Tejas to eat. I love tex mex. MMMM...

We made a run to babies r us, spent time with the grandparents and put the girls in bed. Now I'm sitting alone, with everyone sleeping and it's nice. I had a great day.

Dieting news:
Breakfast: English muffin with ham egg cheese/coffee
Lunch: turkey sandwich/pickle/water
Dinner: Burros (chicken wrapped in a tortilla w/enchilda sauce on top) yum o and black beans/ice tea unsweetened
snacks: 100 calorie pack of peanut butter cookies

Day 5..

I can't believe it's day 5 of my diet. I forgot to weigh myself, which is good because I'd like to wait until Monday to weigh in. Today was a little rough with getting the girls to bed but I need to head to bed early. I have a seminar to attend at 8 am and that means I'll be missing my morning routine with my girls. I haven't done that ever.

The Diet:
Breakfast: Egg Sandwich (homemade)
Lunch: Fish sticks..it was all I had
Dinner: Breaded chicken, spaghetti
Snacks: 100 calorie popcorn, fruit snacks (lol)
Drinks: Orange juice, water, fat free milk.

Night all :)

OH my hubby has started to blog. It's called "notes from a daddy" its www.notesfromadaddy.blogspot.com

Another day...

Today was a little rough. I think it's the meds. I got up tired. I let the girls fuss themselves back to sleep and didn't get up with them at all. That makes me sad. I forced myself to do a few things, start some laundry and feed the girls. After everyone ate, Karly was getting sleepy so I put her in my bed and cuddled with her. Donald brought Katie in a few minutes later and in a few moments, we were all asleep. That was at 10:30. At 1:30, I woke up to a pair of beautiful eyes staring at me. Totally awake. I think she knew mommy just needed to sleep. Katis is a such a good baby. Anyway, I got up fed them bottles, ate lunch and go ready for work. Ended up leaving work early because I just couldn't do it. Now I'm sitting with my feet up trying to plan the girls' first birthday party.

Diet Info
Breakfast: oatmeal/wheat toast/fat free milk
lunch: Half a turkey sandwich on rye, a side of fish..just what I had laying around
Dinner: Vegetable soup/water
Snacks: gummy candy, cupcake (It was one of kids bday parties today. I only ate half)
Liquids: Milk, water

Loooong day that ended with oreos...

and fat free milk :(.

I woke up this morning at 630 to get Karly out of her crib. She's been sleeping through the night for the last 5 months but lately (since she got her tooth) she wants mommy cuddle time at midnight, 3 etc... When I pick her up, I get a big smile and in goes the thumb as she curls into me and goes back to sleep. How do you say no to that?! So last night, I really started feeling bad. They both woke up repeatedly but I didn't get up with them. They fussed themselves back to sleep but I don't want them thinking that I won't come to them if they need me..anyway that's for another day.

So I get up at 630, pick up Karly and crawl back into bed because I wasn't feeling well. Around 7, Katie woke up and I went to go get bottles. We always do morning bottles in bed with cartoons on. I love it. So I go to get bottles and realize there are none made. There is no milk made. There are no clean bottles?! Donald has been getting the morning bottles ready the night before for awhile and usually I wash the bottles before I go to bed but it completely slipped my mind. So I had to scrub up some bottles (girls are now crying) and make some milk (How I wish I could of breast fed). I give them their bottles.

Then we had to get ready for our well visits. We arrived at 9 or a few minutes after. We waited for almost an hour! It was insane. We kept them as calm as we could and Thank God I have a friend that works in the drs office because she bumped us up. I didn't ask, but she said she felt bad because I have two babies to keep happy in the waiting room. So we go back and Katie weighs 19 lbs and Karly weighs 15.4 lbs. Right before the dr comes in, Katie starts throwing her tantrum. Shes crying, screaming and so on. We lay her down to get her shot, she's already crying and then she starts screaming. Karly cried for about 5 seconds, bless her little heart.

So we leave the office. Katie crying, Karly happy. We decide to get something to eat. We go to t he diner, we feed the babies and ourselves and start talking about how neither of us feel well and it's wearing us down. I make us an appointment. It's at 1. Then I remembered that we are out of formula at home. We drive to shop rite, buy some formula ($200 worth that will last us 2 weeks....how do they sleep at night?) Then head to our drs appointment. We give them bottles at the drs and they stay calm. After an hour and half we get called back. Donald has a throat infection, I have an infection in my chest. We are both on antibiotics.

I get home at 2, we unload the car, I go upstairs, drink some juice and get ready for work. Work until 6, pharmacy then home. Feed babies, feed myself then snuggle with babies while they drink their last bottle, jammies then bed. I wash all the bottles, make enough bottles for tomorrow and the next morning, down 4 oreaos and now I'm blogging with a bottle of water.
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Diet today--
Breakfast was Ham, Egg and Cheese Wrap w/ potatoes
Lunch was skipped
Dinner was a homemade hamburger w/soup
Snacks 4 oreas, peanuts
Drinks unsweetened ice tea, water and OJ

Day 2 -1, 42lbs to go :)

I know it's just water weight and my weight fluctuates so much but I'll take it :)

For breakfast I had a bowl of oatmeal and since I had to brown sugar, I had to use 2 teaspoons of regular sugar w/ a little fat free milk. If anyone knows a yummy way to eat oatmeal without sugar, let me know :). I also had 2 slices of wheat toast with smart balance butter and a glass of fat free milk.

For lunch, I had a cobb salad..yum-o and a side of fish..ick, and a glass of water. Kind of a "throw whatever together" lunch.

For dinner I had London Broil (one of the only few red meats I'll eat) string beans and mac n cheese (!). Everything in moderation ;).

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Dh and I are both sick :( but I managed to do 15 minutes of Cardio and some target ab stuff. I had to stop the cardio because my chest was burning and I couldn't breathe ( I have asthma and a chest cold). I'll try to stick to 15 minutes and up it as I feel better.

Then I took a walk to the Library with the girls and then I walked to his work, then home. a good hour of walking. So I think I got in enough physcial activity. Top it off, I went to work and I work with small children so there's not much sitting around there.

Day 1 -0

Okay, so obviously no weight loss today :). I'm set to lose 43 pounds.

Today, for breakfast I had 2 eggs, wheat toast, and a glass of fat free milk.
Lunch was mexican. It was rice, pinto beans, pork, corn/onion salsa, cheese and a touch of sour cream.
Dinner was baked chicken, vegetables and potatoes.
Snacks were an apple and a 100 calorie pack of peanut butter cookie crisps.
To drink was crystal light, water and milk.

I need to drink more water. That I know. We took a walk (that is my pitiful effort for exercise today). Will try to pump it up tomorrow.

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In other news:
Today was an okay day. All four of us have a cold, neither baby is sleeping through the night and Karly wanted to be held from 4 am on, which is why my head hurt so bad today. Lack of sleep + holding baby and tense muscles from it = one killer headache.

Girls are doing so well. It's amazing to watch them interact with each other, although it mainly consist of knocking each other out of the way to get to the nearest toy, pulling each other down and taking toys from each other. Other than that, they are doing well lol. Tonight, Karly was just swimming all over the tub. I loved it. Katie sat in her corner of the tub getting splashed and kicked but she didn't care. She had her rubber frog ;).

1 day to go...

Remember when life was simple :)

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Okay so I woke up this morning +1 which means I need to lose 43 pounds starting Monday. I know it's alot of water weight. I hate water weight. How else would I gain a whole pound in 1 day?!

So tomorrow morning I will weigh myself and go from there. Who knows, maybe it will be 44 pounds tomorrow :(. Then I plan to weigh myself every monday. (I'm a crazy scale person. I weigh myself several times a day)

Today I had very very very low self esteem. I felt so bad about myself. I felt ugly (probably because I woke up with 4 pimples on my chin). Fat fat fat!! I felt awful about myself and while we were walking around the mall my pants and undies kept falling, so I had to keep pulling them up. How embarrassing. Hubby noticed something not right with my mood but what do I say. "Oh, I'm just ugly and fat and my clothes are falling?" I said nothing.

Today we spent the day out. For breakfast, I made up eggs, a slice of ham and toast w/ a cheese slice. (I need to switch to wheat bread). For lunch, like I said we went to Cracker Barrel and I had Chicken fried chicken, pinto beans, carrots and mashed Ps. BUT I didn't finish anything but the carrots :D! I purposely had the woman take my plate before I could down the whole thing but boy was it YUMMY! For dinner, I had a plate of spaghetti.

Okay I'm off to bed. I have the day off tomorrow and we are staying home :). Yay!

Happy Valentines Day!

Today was Valentines Day and we enjoyed it as a family, then as a couple. We went to PF Changs as a family of 4. I have to say, that they did great. We made early reservations as not to disturb the romantic diners later. The girls were being very good. A woman, oh about 30, came over and said "I just want you to know, everyone is talking about you". I thought it was going to be something bad like "I can't believe she brought her kids here" or something to that effect. Instead it was "They are talking about how beautiful and well behaved your babies are". Wow! I felt so proud I almost cried. Cried! Of course I think they are great but to hear it is wonderful. After dinner, we came home, played with the girls for a little while, bathed them and put them in jammies. After their bottle we put them in bed and went out as a couple. We went to Barnes and Noble, had some desert, bought a book (for the girls, of course) and a magazine (for parenting lol) and took a drive. It was a very nice Valentines Day.

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Okay so I stepped on the scale..I want to lose 42 pounds. Apparently, I've gained 2 more pounds :(. Ugh.

Okay so today I had 3 Shredded Wheat buscuits. (If you don't know, it kind of looks like a small bale of hay) in Fat Free milk for breakfast. For lunch, I had a ham and cheddar on wheat with a small Dr. Pepper..bad I know. I had 2 pieces of chocolate (remember it's Valentines Day) and for dinner I had 2 bites, er sips, of egg drop soup (ick), 2 lettuce wraps (yum-o) and beef and broccoli and a tiny shot glass with carrot cake in it. Oh and 3 blackberry jasmine ice teas (very yum-0). Then for desert (hey, it's Valentines Day lol) I had a small green tea Frap and a piece of cheesecake. Like I said, today doesn't count, It's Valentines Day :).

But we'll see what tomorrow brings :) because it's family day out and we are going to...Cracker Barrel! I love that resturant and I always get chicken fried steak with mashed potatoes and corn. I chose a really bad weekend to start this diet thing.

I do have a history of weight loss. I lose it really easy but gain it back very easily. The dr said PCOS has some to blame, not watching what I eat and exercising is to blame as well. It seems I always get on this kick to lose the weight, I lose 30-40 pounds then fall off the wagon and it slowly comes back on. To do my final IVF, I lost 30 pounds, got pregnant, gained 40, lost 40 and have gained 20 pounds back in 5 months. 20 pounds in 5 months!!! It's my fault I know. Life was so busy trying to get used to twins that I let myself go. My husband doesn't care how much weight I gain (sadly) but I do.

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I have 3.5 months...

To lose this weight!

30-40 pounds lol...NOT. Okay so I have all the time to lose those pounds but I want to start losing some of this weight before vacation.

Every morning, the girls wake up at 730. I give them a bottle, they get dressed then we are ready for the day. I told my dh that since I know when they are going to get up, I should get up an hour and a half earlier and go walking. He said he didn't think I would do it. I told my friend and she laughed and said sleep is more important. Not much encouragement there. Needless to say, it never happened.

This morning, I decided my day while the girls were eating. Bottles, clothes and then they could play in the room while I exercised on my home equipment. I go to the bottle fridge upstairs and realized it wasn't working because there was ice over the blower thingy so I spent the next three hours defrosting (didn't think of the blow dryer until hour 3!), juggling laundry, taking care of babies and trying to clean the living room, bathroom and kitchen only to have an even bigger cleanup around the fridge. Not to mention I still had to get shower and get ready for work!

So..I'd like to say that Monday morning, I am going on a diet (as best as I can lol) and I am working out. I'm going to my home equipment and I'm going on those walks. Why not? I usually wake up early anyway. Why not get up and at 'em huh? So, this is what I'm going to do. I am also going to blog daily. What I eat, what exercise I do and so on. Lets go me, lets go!

Babies are doing beautifully! Karly has her first tooth coming in and today they've started lifting their hands when they want me to pick them up. I love them sooo much. Being a mommy is the greatest gift in the world.

It's been a long time :)

It's been awhile since I've updated.

Everything is going great. Both girls are starting to sit up really good on their own. It's so much easier to be able to sit them down and be able to do somethings knowing that they can sit and play with their toys. I still have to put a pillow behind them in case they fall and bump their heads. That has happened a lot. They both scream for a second then get over it but I hate that they hit their heads. When I leave Karly sitting up, she kind of leans over to the side and lets her body roll so she's on her belly, then she wiggles herself wherever she wants to go. It's too cute. Katie likes to either sit and play or stand holding your hands. She has no interest in learning to move around on her own and I think she's going to go straight to walking even though I'd rather crawl a bit first. Give me a heads up on how quick and nosy they are going to be lol.

Their personalities are so different. Katie is very quiet, strong and so smart. She loves watching people, watch what they do, then she imitates it correctly. I know that every baby probably does it the same way but these are my babies and I think it's amazing :). She loves to eat..solids and bottles. She can hold her own bottle now and that helps. We still aren't sleeping through the night in her own bed. She wakes up anywhere between 12-4 to get in bed with us. Depending on how many times I want to get out of bed, is when she gets put in bed with us. Once there she sleeps peacefully all night. She also has a knack for taking all of the toys and putting them away from Karlys reach. Its funny actually.

Karly is hysterical. She laughs all the time. Says "mama" "Dada" "Gaga" "Baba" and is always saying "mmmmmmmmmm". She is sooo loud. She giggles up a storm. She moves everywhere. You have to watch her because she doesn't stay in one place to long. She gets into everything she can reach. She sleeps through the night. 830 to 730. It's wonderful. Today, she was in bed with me and I was giving her a bottle and we both fell asleep and slept until 10. She's a wiggle worm and soo skinny. She still has awful reflux and shes' going to the dr tomorrow to see what we are going to do about it.

Both girls are doing so beautifully and we are so in love with them.

Life is okay. I'm worried about money being that I only work part time. I miss the days when we were carefree with our money. I worry about our savings and bills although everything seems to be okay. I want to continue working part time at least until september and then re-evaluate things. I want to enroll the girls in sept '10 into the toddler program at the LC I work at.

God Bless :)

6 months old :)

We had 6 month photos taken today and if I wasn't already completely in love with my girls and already think they were the most beautiful little girls....well...

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted"

It seems like last year around this time I was sitting here crying over my cousin Billy, who was 22 and died in a motorcycle accident. This morning, I get a call from my cousins mom that my uncle Jr, 55, died this morning around 4:30. I am heartbroken. I'm am hurting so bad right now. My uncle is gone. Why? My Grandpa, My Uncle and My Grandma were the MOST important people in my life growing up. Without their love and guidance, who knows what I'd be doing today. My grandpa died in 2001 and now my uncle is gone. I called family but they are hurting as well so I'll just talk to my blog.

My favorite memories:

• He used to call me "Chipmunk" because of my chubby cheeks
• He taught me how to drive and didn't tell anyone or get mad when I wrecked his truck.
• He would always make me laugh.
• He was honest and good natured.
• He was very hardworking and would do anything for anybody.
• He was so kind.
• He had the greatest laugh. Even when he was told he had 2 months to live, he was laughing at my jokes.

He never had kids. He married my aunt Kathy when I was 15. I like to think he kind of treated me like his daughter. I wouldn't of minded. He was such an amazing guy.

I was trying to order flowers but what do you order? Flowers? I ended up sending a basket of flowers and memory tree for my aunt to plant wherever she wanted.

I'm so angry he's gone. It's not fair. When I went home in Oct, they said he had cancer in his heart and that he had 2 months. Somewhere I feared I'd never see him again but I think I'd talked myself into thinking that I'd see him next year. I wish I could go home and be with my family. My girls need me here. I can't fly in because the airport is 3 hours away from where I need to be and I'm afraid to drive through St. Louis by myself.

And if all of this is not enough...I think my daughter has the fifths disease. How in the heck did she get that? I think I need sleep. It's been a long day.

Happy New Year!

Katie trying to wrap up her sister.

Playing under the tree after all gifts were opened

Christmas Eve: Can we open just 1 mommy?
(they opened 1 :))

Posing in their "Our First Christmas" jammies on Christmas Eve

Those were some Christmas photos. I didn't think to take ANY! I am so upset. I didn't get any photos of anything. I was so wrapped up in the moment that it never occured to me to grab the camera. Oh well, at least the video camera was running the whole time.

Anyway, so it's that time again! Time for me to diet. The Holidays are over, I'm not longer pregnant so I need to get into shape. My small goal 20 pounds. I've gained 20 in the last few months, so that stinks. It's all in my belly and face. So my goal is 20 pounds. I've been looking into something to kick start the weight loss and I'm thinking of take a months worth of Slimquick. I'm not one for diet pills and I usually never take them (I hate taking anything...even tylenol) but I think if I get a jump start (the reviews were almost all positive) and I continue with cardio, I'll get a few pounds off and a positive attitude to get my but in gear.

I've also decided to start back up one of my favorite past times. My love for reading. I love historical romances. I like ones from the 1800's in London and I love the early 1900 westerns. Any suggestions? Anyway the first book I've decided to dig into is "P.S. I Love You" I saw the movie and cried through the whole freaking thing. I can't wait to read the book. I've been reading "Story Telling" by Tori Spelling for the last 2 months or so and I'm only half way through because I haven't made time for it but that's in the past. New Year, New Me :) .

The girls are doing great. Katie is starting to sit up, can hold her bottle for a short time, goes to sleep in a matter of seconds (by herself) and weighs a whopping 17.2 pounds! Karly says Mommmmmmmmma, Dada and makes a bunch of other sounds including "Ha ha" lol. At least thats what it sounds like. Lately, she cried at bedtime. Not sure why. She screams hysterically until we pick her up then she stops and smiles. She weighs 14.6 pounds! They are both getting so big!

Merry Christmas!

We have a wonderful first Christmas with the little ladies. They got way to many toys and had way to much fun! Too much fun you say? Nah, Never. Actually it was so hard to put them to bed Christmas night. We didn't succeed until 10 pm and that was only because mommy and daddy said "enough" put them in bed and shut the door. We let them cry it out. They cried for about 15 heartbreaking minutes, then they went to sleep and slept all night :).

We started the day with breakfast, then opened a few presents, then took a nap. While they were napping, the adults opened gifts. I got a new glider from Katie, a cute pair of eeyore pjs from Karly and a very pretty mommy necklace from my three loves. I got a pair of pjs from the in laws.

Today, Saturday, I had a very mommy/daughter day. It was fun but hard. We got up at 6:30, had a bottle of milk and hung around until daddy went to work. Then I put the girls down for a nap while I ate and cleaned a little. When they woke up, we headed to Burlington Coat to do a little shopping. You can get some baby stuff there for WAY cheaper than BRU. After that we went to daddys work then went grocery shopping for formula.

We came home, had some lunch. Yummy oatmeal with Applesauce and a bottle. Took a short nap, had a bath then got ready for a birthday part. I did the baths by myself! There are these cute little bath beds I call them. They are a slanted piece of mesh attached to legs and it holds them in a slanted position. I put both in the tub and put the babies in the tub, scrubbed them up and got them out. I was sweating by the time we made it to the bedroom. Karly hates lotion, so she screamed while I put in to. I got her dressed and happy and watched my little Katie. Naked as a jaybird laughing and playing with feet. So precious! Anyway I lotioned her up and got her dressed.

The party was so loud. Did I mention that I took my baby girls to an 8 and a 4 year olds birthday party? There were kids everywhere. Did I mention I took them by myself?! It was crazy. The other women helped me a little bit but they had their own kids to take care of. It was busy and loud and I was very tired. My friend let me put the girls to sleep in her bedroom where I crossed my fingers and begged Karly not to do a spitting up while laying down routine. She didn't thank goodness. Did I mention I won't be doing that again? :)

Well that was my day. I'm exhausted. Time for bed :). I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas!

Happy 5 Months babies!

Happy Holidays!

Make a Smilebox greeting

Sleeping beauties..

I have pretty awesome kids :)

I know I post a lot about my girls, but I'm not sure if I brag about them. I want to do that in this post.

I remember in the beginning, all Katherine did was cry. She never napped and all she did was Cry cry cry! It was crazy. She woke up crying, went to bed crying. Was never happy. Now? She cries when she is tired, hungry or poopy. That's it. It's never a screaming fit though. It's a whinny cry and we usually fix the problem immediatly and she's back to being happy. When she's tired, we lay her in her crib. She smiles at us, rolls on her side and falls asleep. She's been playing and grabbing things too. She likes to wrap her little arm around my neck, which I find so sweet but then she grabs a handful of hair and holds on. She also gives me kisses now. She opens her mouth and rubs it over my cheek. I love it.

In the beginning, all Karly did was sleep. She never stayed awake for anything. She'd fall asleep with a bottle in her mouth, go four or five hours without a bottle. She rarely cried. Once her sister started calming down, she started with the fussys too. Cry cry cry cry. (they were both going at it now). Once all that stopped, she became a baby that smiles ALL the time. You just have to look at her to get a full on, eye sparkling smile. It's beautiful. She also giggles so cute and she talks so loud. She is so full of life. She mischevous and she's probably going to get into a lot of trouble the older she gets but I love it. She loves chewing on everything...including her sister. You put her in the crib, she smiles at you, hums for a bit then sleeps all night long.

Both of my girls are pretty awesome. They are beautiful and I'm so in love with them.

20/21 week checkup!!

They got their 4 month shots yesterday. Here are the new stats!

Katherine

(She is trying very hard to sit up)

Weight: 14 pounds 1 ounce

Length: 24 1/2 inches

Karly

(Karly not trying to sit up)

Weight: 12 pounds 8 ounces

Length: 24 1/4 inches

They are doing very very well!!! I am so pleased. They are still kind of in the middle (25-50 percentile for weight and length) so I'm very happy.

If you haven't already, def watch video in the post below. :)

video for you!

my daughter karly laughing at me dh. she is so loud lol.

Tis the season...

Loving all the Christmas Music!!!
Things to blog about:

• Christmas shopping
• Girls and the day
• Why do some people do what they do?
• Going out

1. Yesterday, my dh decided that we needed to go out as a family and do some Holiday shopping. It was a very nice afternoon. (We didn't head out until 4). We went to Fortunoff and JCPenneys. We spent a lot, got some nice things for the girls. I know they don't know what's going but they need stuff so why not? Besides, between now and July they will need stuff right? After shopping, we ate at Cheeseburger in Paradise and then went to Babies R Us. There were hardly any people there and the girls were being so good until the end. In BRU, Katie wanted out of her carseat so I took her out and let her sit in the shopping cart. She did so well! I was so afraid of all the germs, so I held on to her hands so she wouldn't touch it. I was not prepared for this moment, so I didn't bring any sanitizer or the cover. Overall it was a very nice family day.

2. Today was a pretty good day. Katie and Daddy got up around 9 and went to the living room and left mommy and Karly sleeping. Karly woke up and daddy come in around 10:15 but for some reason mommy couldn't wake up. Reason: it seems that Mommy has come down with a bug. I didn't feel well at all and was so tired, even after a full nights sleep. I got up a little before 11 and made the girls bottles. (Daddy apparently didn't know they needed to eat :)) After their bottles, they played for awhile then I made them some cereal and applesauce for lunch. After that, they took a nap and I layed back. Still not feeling well. The girls didn't sleep long and it was back to work. They are getting so much bigger and I just look at them and miss those teeny tiny babies I use to have. Karly pulled herself up on her knees today and her face went into the mattress lol. It was cute. Katie coos and gahs a lot more and is getting louder. I ended up going to be at 330 and sleeping until 530 with Katie while daddy played with Karly. I really should be going to bed because I'm feeling pretty bad but I wanted to post and I still have to make bottles. So much for time management.

3. Why do people give their 7 day old cereal? I know why one parent did it. So he would sleep through the night. Well guess what...it didn't work. Now he's one very big 2 month old. I just don't get it. I have another friend who just had a baby and all she did when I called to say congrats was complain. OH she doesn't sleep, all she wanted to do was play, I'm tired....Okay I get it, the beginning is hard but wheres the "She's so pretty, so precious, so tiny, I'm in love?" Oh well.

4. I went out Friday night to my boss' house and got drunk..it was nice lol. She kept refilling my Apple Martini...oh it was soooooooooooo good. I was feeling sick to my stomach yesterday but totally worth it. I left around 7 pm, the girls did the night routine with daddy and I dont' think they missed me. I didn't even feel guilty about leaving.

I think this is all that's on my mind. Night.

Drama Drama Drama...

Okay the drama at work is driving me nuts! I don't understand where it comes from. I go in, I do my job, barely talk to anyone and it finds me. I quietly do my job and now I'm "being taken advantage of" and I don't say anything about it and now it's drama. I didn't think I was being taken advantage of and I didn't care enough about the situation to open my mouth. Doesn't that scream "leave me out of it!"? Apparently not. Oh well I guess thats what you get when you work with a bunch of women.

ON to the good stuff!!!

My beautiful chubby babies and yes, don't judge me, she is chewing on her sock (that I just took off her foot). She was holding it and as I snapped the picture she shoved it in her mouth. Good hand-eye coordination right? hehe...Anyway here are my chuck a lunks. Not that I think they are chunky (they are actually still lightweights) but they are much more chunky than the little things I gave birth to.

Here is my baby Karly. Yes her shirt is wet. She spits up and drools like crazy. Hubby probably forgot the bib or it got really wet and he took it off. She loves this toy and I am just so happy she is holding it. I find lately, that they love to pick things up and put them to their mouth. They don't always put it in their mouth, sometimes (unless it's a sock) they just lick it. This toy makes music whenever it's moved so it plays alot. She is also rolling over. Not sure if I've blogged this yet. She rolled over a few weeks ago and I think it scared her so she doesn't do it unless she's really upset and I make her stay on her tummy until she does.....mean mommy :).

Katherine is rolling over too. It's almost impossible to get her to lay on her tummy now. It's so cute. She loves her horn. I love this photo because of the reflection of her little eye. She is actually watching tv. Probably Wonder Pets or Yo Gabba Gabba. We keep noggin on for the songs and noise (we use cds too) but she's started looking at the tv more so I may have to buy the music cds of the shows and play them. I love Laurie Berkner and she sings alot on Jacks big music show.

They SLEEP THROUGH THE NIGHT!
Oh how wonderful is that. Last night we slept from 830 pm to 6 am, got a bottle and slept from 630 am to 1030 am. It was soo nice and quiet this morning. Usually they are up about 830 or 9. They set their own bedtime. Now at 830, they get tired and cranky, so we just put them in bed and they fall asleep. That is until tonight. I put them in bed and they screamed and screamed and screamed. So I went in and got them, laid them on my bed and what happens? They look right at me and flash me the biggest "I've got you wrapped so tight around my finger, you ain't ever coming off". Sheesh..

Well I should be going to bed. Night all!

November is a month I'll always hold dear...

• November 4th 2007: Egg Retrieval..5 eggs
• November 5th 2007: 4 mature and fert
• November 9th 2007: 2 embryos survived the week and were transfered
• November 10th 2007: felt sharp pains that took my breath away (3 times)
• November 14th 2007: Started spotting, got very bad feelings
• November 16th 2007: HPT had a VERY faint positive
• November 18th 2007: HPT had another VERY faint positive
• November 19th 2007: Beta test, My RE called me personally and said

"Hi Tina, It's Dr. N...... Did the bleeding stop? Good, Good. Listen, you're pregnant sweetie."

OH MY GOODNESS!!!

• November 29th 2007: TWINS!

That was my November 2007. Crazy how one month can totally change your whole life. It was a change for the better and I am so blessed to have these two perfect, beautiful girls in my life. I couldn't ask for anything more.

Katherine and Karly turn 4 months!

I wanted to say "Thank You" to all the comments yesterday. It's nice to know there are shoulders out there to lean on and an ear to listen. Thanks again and big (((HUGS))) to you!

I love this photo :)

4 months today!!

Katherine Emily:

Katherine is smiling a lot more than she used to. Sometimes we even get a giggle out of her. She is also starting to hold on to her pony and doesn't drop it. She isn't really interested in chewing on anything but her hands and today, she found her foot and wouldn't let it go. She loves watching Yo Gabba Gabba with daddy in the evening. Her body just goes crazy when it comes and on. She laughs and kicks and waves her arms about. She hasn't really found her voice and when she babbles, it's kind of quiet, almost a whisper. She loves kisses and loves giving kisses. She now sleeps from 9:30 to about 5:30, then from 6 to 9. Lovin' it! She is also trying to sit up although she's no where near that. Tummy time is starting to be fun for her and she loves her solids. Cereal with bananas and applesauce.

Karly Elizabeth:

Karly has started to babble a lot. She squeals with excitement or yells when she's mad. She smiles almost non stop, giggles a lot and it's very loud. When she stares at you, you know she's trying to figure something out. Shes found her thumb and is very good at self soothing and putting herself back to sleep. Karly is starting to sleep through the night. She usually goes to sleep at 930 and wakes up about 7, eats then sleeps until 9ish. She loves grabbing toys, batting at them and loves staring at her feet. She loves her cereal, although she hasn't lost the tongue thrust yet so it's a bit difficult to feed her. She is losing it slowly though.

I may be missing a few things but there is an update on my 4 month old babies :).

My boss invited me to a jewelry party. She knows my current predicament and told me getting out with the girls and having some fun would be good for me. Shes had some bad life spells too (her dad died, hubby left her and the kids) so she said it's time for some things to go back to normal and to have some fun. So I guess I'll be going. My hubby will be taking care of the little ones.

I'm also going to the work christmas party. It's just us girls (that work at the center). There should be drinking and having lots of fun. I didn't enjoy it much last year because I was secretly pregnant and couldn't drink and was afraid to jump and dance around lol. I also wanted to avoid the "why aren't you drinking" question. This year should be more fun.

Last night, I took the first dose. It made me very sleepy. Of course, I don't notice any effect but that can take weeks. I'm jus surprised at how tired I am. Good thing I took it at night.

"You have good, beautiful babies"....

Is what the dr said as I told him the PPD wasn't going away. He said I should be happy, and I'm not. I tried to explain that I am happy with my children and I love them dearly but I couldn't stop crying long enough to explain it. I'm just sad. It's not that I don't love my girls or my life, I'm just sad. Sad all the freakin' time. I'm uptight. I want people to stop talking to me.
Them: "Are they twins?"
Me: "Are you stupid? NO, they're not. The hospital was having buy one get one..."
Them: "Boy/Girl"
Me: "Yes, I dress my boy in PINK to throw stupid people off but I couldn't fool you!"
etc etc etc...
I wish I could say I've never actually said this but I have. Once when I was at a table waiting for for our food to arrive. I mostly just mumble under my breath and dart away. In all honesty, I should be happy to have people fall over themselves trying to see my girls...but I don't.

Post Partum depression sucks!!!!

The therapist says...

• You had a difficult time getting pregnant
• You have a history of anxiety and depression
• You didn't have a good delivery (it ended with me getting pumped with zanax)
• You had twins
• You do it by yourself
• No family visited you in the hospital, where you stayed for 5 days, mostly alone

What did you think was going to happen?

Oh I DON'T KNOW! Maybe I thought it would dandelions and puppy dogs.......

EDITED: He put me on Prozac...

Solids..

We gave the girls solids as per doctors request. It is supposed to keep Karlys weight up while she recovers from her stomach virus and keep her liquids in by weighting them down. The bananas are to bind her so she'll stop with the runny bms. So she also suggested that Katherine start solids to help with her reflux before it gets worse...so we did.

Katherine and her cereal. She kept chewing on her fingers while eating so she got it everywhere. Too cute :)

Karly loves her food. She loves bananas. My little monkey :).

Halloween pics :)

Resting after a night of trick or treating :)

Katie needed a few minutes to sleep before continuing.

In the stroller looking at all the funny dressed people

My Butterfly and my Poodle...my poodle isn't happy at all..

Our Halloween Day outfits

Even tired would say I'm tired haha..

I am exhausted! For some reason, my body has decided that it only needs minimal sleep before it's time to get up but doesn't think of everything it has to do before it goes to bed again.

Last night, I went to bed at 11, after everything was done for the day. I painted, cleaned, finished laundry, washed and made bottles for the night and today.

At 3:30 am, Katherine wakes up, probably thinking it's really 4:30 and since she had thrown up her bottle the night before and went to sleep on an ounce of Pedilyte, I decided to feed her. She went back to sleep but I couldn't. When I finally felt drowsy enough, Karly woke up to eat. It was 5:30 am, she usually eats around 6 so I got up to feed her. When she was finished, sun was shining (kind of) and my body decided it was time to go to work.

Today has been a long day. I cleaned the garage, organized boxes and took care of the babies. Everything was going good and at 230 I layed on the sofa with a Karly and a bottle. When she finished, she was asleep, so I joined her. It must of been right after I fell into a deep sleep that I noticed my stomach felt warm and wet. I opened my eyes in time to see Karly vomit all over herself. I sat up to grab the burp cloth and she vomited on the couch. I tried to get her over the floor (that I can clean) and she vomits on dh. I look down and am covered with it. She starts crying. I carry her into the bedroom, take off my shirt and undress Karly. She continues crying and I noticed it was coming out of her nose. After cleaning her and myself up, I thought it was over. Karly has reflux and is always spitting up (granted this was more but I'm not going to go crazy over 1 vomit session) so I put her in her bouncer and went to look at my very expensive not yet paid off suede and leather sofa. It is very much ruined. If anyone knows how to clean this, the advice is greatly appreciated.

So while holding her after this debacle, I smell a stinky diaper so I lay her down to change her and let me tell you..I was not good. It was awful. I decided with the vomit and now this, I'd take her to the dr. There they told me that she probably has a virus and to give it 3 to 4 days and if it's worse, come back. Great! Now I can only feed Karly 2 ounces per feeding. Do you know what it's like to take a bottle away from a hungry baby and tell her she can have more in an hour? It's heartbreaking.

I'm exhausted...

Been a bit..

Okay. Life is so hectic right now.

1. We live in a very small "studio" type place. We have a bedroom, bathroom, livingroom, kitchen. It's livable, just small. Half of our room is our bedroom. Half of the room belongs to the girls. The girls have taken over the living room as well. The hallway is full of clutter and life is just a mess. So, we've decided to redue the bedroom. That means rearranging it. Before, it was more ours than theirs. I realized, if you rearrange it the right way, it's big enough to be half and half. After some remodeling, painting (to make it more girly) and adding some shelves, the room looks way bigger than it is and all the girls stuff is playable and usable. Next we have living room. Another nice size room but a room we've taken over in our 5 years of marriage. Things we've collected, magazines, and lots of junk. Slowly, I've been packing all of the "junk" away to be used one day when we have a bigger place (maybe a few years..this will NOT work when the girls are bigger). We will be working to get rid of the oversized entertainment center and the huge computer desk, to a smaller version of both to make more room for all babies toys and more room for the to crawl around and play. You enter through the hallway, so there's lots of crap there too. Life is being happy with what you have, right? Well we are trying to make it work :).

2. In the mist of all of this, I've gone back to work. Monday and Tuesday were hard. Today was easier. The days go by much faster which I don't like. I enjoy my girls in the morning, then leave them with either my hubby or my mother in law. Work isn't too bad. It goes fast and I don't have a lot to do. The kids are pretty good and the room is tidy so not much cleaning.

so lifes a bit crazy...

Vacation photos!

These are some photos from our vacation. They are all located on my myspace page and facebook. My myspace is www.myspace.com/xoxo623, feel free to add me :)

After driving for 10 hours, we stopped at the Fairfield Inn. There we got a very nice suite for a hefty sum. Mommy and Daddy had to pay alot because all the hotels were booked. We loved and even though we had our own beds, we wanted to sleep in the big King size bed they were in. We all fit nice :)

After 12 hours on the road, we arrived at our GG's house. GG is mommys grandma. My mommy said I'm named after her. We stayed at her house the whole time we were there. We liked it there. It was very loud at times but a lot of people came over and everyone wanted to hold us.

I didn't so much like the 12 hour trip and had a very serious melt down. Aunt Christian tried to hold me but I wanted no part in it. Mommy had to take me into the bedroom for some alone time before I was socialable.

Grandma Barb came to visit us. She is my mommys mommy. She gave us new clothes and lots of kisses. We like her.

After a few days at GG's house, we went to visit Grandpa Craig and Grandma Teresa. This was mommys Daddy. He didn't know what t do with us because we are small but he said next year he would take us to a bunch of fun places. He did feed me a bottle though.

We went on a walk and my daddy saw this spider. Mommy ran away from it and yelled for daddy not to take us closer to it. Daddy did anyway and took a photo of it. Mommy didn't like that. It was really big!

Grandpa bought us these cardinals pjs. We are a little to big for them but that's ok. It wasn't too cold, so we were good. Mommy had to ask grandpa several times to hold us at the same time.

While we were in Springfield, Mommy and Daddy went to a place called Bass Pro Shops. Mommy thought it would be cute to put me in the chair and Daddy took a picture. Mommy likes the chair. I just want to get out of it.

Daddy took a picture of mommy taking care of us.

When we got back from Springfield, we went to visit my great grandma Gracie. She is my mommys mommys mommy or something like that. While we were there, our aunt Amber came to visit. She had fun playing with her. We like her.

This is our great grandma gracie. She said we were beautiful. She had so much fun feeding us and holding us. Of course, mommy made her hold both of us for a photo op. We didn't have any pants on because it got really hot in Missouri that day.

Grandma Barb wanted to babysit us so mommy and daddy could run to the store. Mommy told grandma she had to feed us both at the same time. She did and they thought it was funny. I don't know why it was funny but they thought it was.

When we went home, mommys brother came over. Uncle Eric got to hold us for awhile but he didn't stay long because he was moving into a new house. We had fun with him and his lady friend.

After church, where mommy had us prayed for, we went the house of one of mommys friends moms, or something like that. Her name is Wanda. Mommy said she spent more time at her house then she spent at her own. We liked this lady. She gave us a bunch of toys.

Daddy decided it was time to sleep in one day. We decided to sleep in with him. Mommy got up and visited.

Our great Aunt Brenda bought us these outfits. MOmmy loves them! We don't know yet.

This is our Granny Madge. She made us the funny hats and the matching blankets. She drove a long way to make sure she got to meet us. It was a lot of fun.

Surprise! Mommy bought us each a chair and a hat that say "My first fishing Hat" whatever that means. I assume we'll be going fishing soon?

Aunt Christian and her fiance' stopped by on our last night there to say by to mommy. We got a cute photo.

Finally, we got GG with both of us. Mommy misses GG very much but we had a great time and we will see her again next year. Thanks for looking!