Busy? That's an understatement.

I don't know when life got so hectic but it did.  2 almost 4 year olds, a full time job and a husband is a lot to handle.

Where do I start?  I don't even know where we left off.

Work.
Work is going well.  I'm training some new ladies.  I've been told that I need to say good bye to Toddlers because this will be my last year in there.  I'm very sad about that.  Good news?  Those little ones I've fallen in love with over the year are going to be mine again.  I'll get to watch them grow even more.  Yes they drive me mad but OH I wish I could share pics of them on here.  You would fall in love too.  They are so smart and funny and lately they've been telling me they love me.  It's so great to hear.  I spend a great deal of time with these children.  I've potty trained them, I feed them three times a day, I rub their backs to sleep, hold them when they cry.  Yes I love the kids in my class .. even though they drive me frickin' crazy!!

Lately we've been having lots of hitting and tantrums and yelling and screaming and JUST NOT LISTENING.
It's enough to make you shake your head and wonder "What in the WORLD was I thinking choosing this as a profession??'  But then I come to work and get hugged and told "I wuv you Ms. Tina".  Awe.

Girls
Getting big, bossy and bratty.  Oh my I have no idea how I will survive these two in puberty.  OY VEY.  Katie is getting so bossy but she's so pretty and smart and confident.  Karly is very shy but funny and energetic.  She laughs a lot.  They are excited about their birthday and vacation.  We've told them all the fun stuff we were going to do.  They keep saying "July 14!" cause that's when both things happen.

Me.
I took tomorrow off.  Meds aren't working much anymore and I'm becoming more anxious and irritable.  I'm finding myself getting trapped into things.  I'm going to talk to my dr tomorrow.  I'm going to ask him to either put me back on xanax or up my dosage.  I take such a low dose now.  I'm not sure why I'm getting worse again but I think it's a mix of burn up and I just want to go the hell home.  


50 Shades.
I sat down and started reading "Fifty Shades of Grey" despite my better judgment.  I did enjoy the book once I was passed all those "parts" I didn't find entertaining.  Honestly, some girls want him!  He's a fictional character that got his rocks off my beating and dominating women.  I don't understand the attraction.  The two characters did find a great love and THAT I liked.  I hated the ending.  However, It was a love story and a very good one at that.  I'm glad I spent 4 days reading 3 books snuggled in my bed by my lamp.  I am so tired but I'm done :) .

I wanted to post some pics but ya'll seen them on FB I'm sure haha :)